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2010-01-01T13:55:00.002+08:00

now 2010 has come, only 7 weeks left to aussie...

i have to really enjoy slacking around in sg, and then slowly torment myself in eating home cooked food and do cleaning up. yeah. simple basic things... perhaps in a year's time, i would be able to create one of my own signature dishes!

let's hope :]

for the new year, i hope that i will do well in my studies. as simple as that. :D
working for other people in such a low status really makes me boil most of the time...
alright. may love and good stuffs come to you.... to my friends and family... everyone!!

love :]

2009-12-06T11:56:00.001+08:00

what has come has certainly gone.
why is there no eternity?

2009-11-29T12:27:00.002+08:00

why do we feel so much better when we have done something that no one else has done before?

is it satisfaction or a sense of discovery or probably a feeling of wanting to share and educating the others? things come and go. then, what makes these things come and go?

who and what is controlling us?

somehow, I got a feeling that we are not masters of ourselves and we belong to something.

Feelings and feelings. Are they at all reliable?

2009-10-25T20:52:00.001+08:00

2009-10-09T23:23:00.002+08:00

cant decide if he will be the one to stay by me for the rest of my life.

but i like the idea of him holding my hand for a dance while i listen to robbie williams from my earplugs.

and me drawing a portrait of him which i will upload to facebook sometime soon :]

the young, the middle and the old

2009-10-04T20:40:00.002+08:00

i cant stop myself from thinking about many ways life can be equal to.
yet, it is unbearable to know that when you get older, illness and disease takes control.

and like a flying plane losing fuel, you will likely to have a very bad ending.

it is really upset to admit my grandparents losing faith in themselves.

resorting to other ways and lies to comfort their souls.

plus, i have been eating out so often, that a meal alone with my grandmother and shopping with her made me realise how important money is.

a pair of shoes cost 9.90. she didnt even take a glimpse on the other shoes, nor look at other designs. she said "even if you pay 10 dollars, you get 10cents back. isnt that cheap?"
eating in an air-conditioned place makes her feel too classy, and she prefers to sit in a normal stuffy food court for lunch.

***

too much news regarding global warming.
no cars day! no cars day! no cars day! NO CARS DAY!
i wish it will happen!

2009-09-21T14:30:00.003+08:00

Daydreaming lots as time flies pass...

This year is a happening year. Life comes and goes. Sadness drowns and happiness lifts souls.

Time and patience always the answer to all solutions yet humans are unable to realise that, and are off to hurrying other solutions and 'advise' people to step back and look out of the box.

Cancer has finally won against my uncle. Luckily, managed to get a glimpse and prayed with him before he got set free. Everyone was prepared for this moment when large symptoms started to appear and morphine had to carried around his hands wherever he went.

Death happens more than a million possible ways. Some snap out of it easily through the most impossible mishaps yet some are fated to leave by the slightest silliest mistake. Some are meant to stay with an illness (most)... energy fading slowly month by month, activities halting, daily activities become unrealistic in their minds. Some by mistakes not done by themselves (this really damn suay) Still, when time is up, you cant deny the fact.

Week after week, I see my extended family members energy draining. Unable to open screwlids of boxes, unable to read newspaper, water retention, unable to support body weight, slight dementia, all happening. I am not the only one witnessing these.

I hope that they are well, and they will not suffer long enough to get mentally stressed out.

**

Then there is this case about dolphins. If you watch THE COVE, which everyone should watch.
Seriously, I do not mind standing in public with a TV screen strapped onto me. YOU have to know seriously why people in TAIJI are killing the dolphins. Me and chef are thinking of ways on how to alert people into these situations.. not only dolphins, but mother nature's gifts... and people are destroying them. If you want to join in the team, do send me a mail.

**

I am not a pessimistic person. Just that, I feel emotional just by being alive and wasting resources.

I am not really smart either, so smart people start emailing and drop your ideas into
1. Save the Dolphins
2. Save the Forest
3. Safe Food, Healthy Animals, Brilliant Humans.

Coming up on 1st October. :]

2009-08-16T13:43:00.001+08:00

2009-08-16T10:51:00.001+08:00

new member of the family

louise is the new chicken I got it from tokyo through a grabbing machine using just 4.50

2009-07-19T21:08:00.002+08:00

when i was in polytechnic, i thought that no obstacle will ever be that hard to conquer.
it is true to a certain extent, for when you have the mind set to a particular goal, you will pave your road towards that end.
what went wrong after i graduate is my goal slowly disappeared. there wasn't a distinct plan B for me.

sighs. i have no motivation, no goal and stupidly feeling down.
what an ass.

2009-06-26T00:52:00.002+08:00

tonight is a dark night, darker than yesterday but warmer.
i felt gloomy today thinking about how and why bad things should happen to someone.
chef says that it is to remind us not to be too spoilt, and that misfortune is not really fair to everyone.
i have not figured that out yet.
1. will misfortune teach lessons that maybe one will learn?
2. will misfortune warn others around one to not take things for granted?

i cannot understand why happiness cannot be prolonged and why one is not easily satisfied.
cannot understand what love is and if it can be judged or measured.
even more when people are able to get away with things just by making excuses than apologise.
and i wonder how the mind forgives and accepts hatred.

farn. i feel so sad right now.

2009-06-12T11:46:00.002+08:00

My travelmate is rather slow for some time. So lovely dad is going to help me repair it's mechanism. Did some backup data and looked through the photos from last year of poly till now... and mmm. really brought back loads of memories. band, W35P and isaac. oh wells.

:]

i remembered someone told me indirectly that i am illogical twice in 3 seconds with complete shakings of the head as well. It actually sadden me a little, but to think of it, I guess logic will never be complete with a twist of creativity. As long as you are on the edge of logic without falling into the category of being lame. heh heh.

still amazed at how i am not able to categorise things on my table and in my cupboard. i really pei fu my exbf who is so tidy and neat with his things. it feels like i am in a library every time i walked into his room, just without the air-conditioner on. talking about sorting things, i am still not able to sort presents, books, music, and some others.

i have learned to sort photos. by date of course. i used to sort it by nice or not then to category of friends (every friend has a folder..) then moving on to dates. which works out neatly :]
still having a problem with other stuffs, my table and cupboard is in a huge mess. cause i think they are erm. similar... like for paper... do i sort according to year? subject? color of folder? importance? it is possible to sort the paper according to all those i have listed.. but that won't be me. i like to be in a huge mess. haha.

so let's move on to wardrobe. i used to sort it by length, then moving on to color, then to parts of the body. but each time i did, it will be in a mess 2 days later... as i flip the clothes around to choose what i want to wear. face it. i cant just wear according to which comes first. sometimes, it just looks totally off and it doesnt suit my mood at all. so now, i sort it by how often i wear it.
:]

well. all this talk just to say that i really admire people who can sort things out naturally by using their common sense. i definitely have common sense, just not common enough to understand the right from wrong, from sorting... but for black and white, for natural procedures such as mathematics, i guess i am pretty sure where i am heading. for i have too many views on one particular subject. for a cup does not really have to rest on a coaster to dry its butt. well, that really proves messy me then :]

love.

2009-06-04T19:57:00.002+08:00

Chef has been away for some time now.. And my trip is coming real soon.
and Rarrs. the mosquitoes at home are really bugging me.
I still keep getting bites from Mr. Anonymous.
Parents say that it must be bed bugs, cause i get a series of bites in a certain area.
Last night, I slept in the living room on hard wood. :(
STILL, i got a bite on the hand. (1 bite still good. normally i get 3).
This morning, took all the covers and poured hell lots of dettol, bleach and powered detergent (not exaggerating).
put the pillows and bolsters out to the living room to face the sun.
and smoked the entire room with this smoky thingy.

apparently, one of this is enough to make me faint.
So i decided that since i hate the mozzies.. i put 4 and head to shower.
After shower, my room was smoking like SHIT! CANT even see my own bed.
Opened the windows, brushed my teeth, but decided to close the windows and light up another two of that smoky thing.
Yeah. I smoked it till evening about 6...

AND FFFFFF!
I JUST got another series of bites on the back of my shoulder!
DAMN.
HOW DID THAT HAPPENED?

2009-05-23T21:55:00.002+08:00

i would like to add on another entry.(to let someone know that if the same mistake happens twice or more, sadly the problem should lie in you. the higher the number of incidences, the higher the chance is.) :]

just thanks to chef's 'meditation' on me. :]

situation
me: so what should we do now?
chef: yeah... *looks around for a very long time*
me: why are you so boring?
chef: yeah... *gives cheeky look but still not giving answer to first question*
me: *hugs chef* and suggest something.

i wasn't really this forgiving. just a month ago, something similar happened and we ended up in a very disastrous situation. I had a little too many, and he ended up sulking till the next day.

after that, a change in me happened.. a change that allowed me to look over his 'faults'

the change
me: ehm... i will not be able to see you tomorrow...
chef: oh. why?
me: well. i will be going to (fill in event's name)
chef: mmm. shall we meet for breakfast or lunch tomorrow then?
me: yeah. no problem!
chef: well. i can prepare pratas :]
me: *gives a little surprise*

it is when he places me in such a high priority compared to other things that he has. though it is only for an hour, with lots of traffic to beat with, with loads of time to prepare, and to put me in work on time..that it made me appreciate him more. and to give him twice the amount back(for now).
i STILL manage to complain a little when he is late yada yada. the thing is... he adapts to my complains. be courteous all the time and just pampers me to the end.

all girls love to be pampered, loved and cared for. some from the same guy in her whole lifetime.
some from different guys in her whole lifetime. some just submit themselves to fate and do it otherwise. every girl on this earth has something that will certainly capture a guy's attention/heart. it is amazing how this works, and how long that will work for.. i hope mine will be forever.

and i have stopped expecting from chef. because i have started to wonder every single minute... "oh.. i think i should give him this (fill in) surprise..."

yes. that is for now :]
love you chef!

2009-05-23T21:35:00.002+08:00

the heat in singapore is unbearable. the climate is really changing, & everyone is still charging for power/money in this damn country...

when is the next earth day which i have accidentally missed?

when will my next no car day be possible? will all of us be able to take climate change as a very important matter and start to work on saving the earth?

***
i am currently a special dish from the mosquie bar at home.
every single day, i get at least a bite from this mini eaters and it is making me itch like hell.
where are these mosquitoes coming from? everybody checked the hot spots at home.. and NO. nothing found! oh my. DOSHITE?!

oh yeah. please check out facebook on my amateur sculptures (hidden talent :O ) and leave a comment if you like!

2009-05-09T16:51:00.002+08:00

like a space shuttle it shoots.
like a candy bar it decorates.
like a straw it sucks.
puny little frog what else can you do?

dedicated to the gay frog in the whole wide universe.
;]

love.

2009-04-24T23:57:00.002+08:00

Hello. I am back from a long vacation without the computer.
a vacation to science park, doing research work now (which i finally got my 'dream' job since graduation. and hell. i was expected to do stuffs which i cant do...)

very utmost greatful for the amount of variations and opportunities I have met with this company. Although the most difficult person to get by is the one who watches every step and move I make, at least I still have the chance to! (yeah. i still do complain. but wtheck.. :] )

ok. no more mushy stuffs :]
and im really happy that i will be leaving sooon. REALLY SOON... to TOKYO, JAPAN WITH MY SWEETEST LOVE- ALICIA!

3 cheers!!

**sidetrack**

for the color white represents all,
for the wall color represents chore.
for what i do is what it takes,
for what i take will be what cost thou.
for love i sacrifice without a doubt,
but what comes back will be sure a second thought.

**:]**

for hamsters love to eat and sleep,
i shall then provide everything.

HAHA. super poetic when im feeling down.
of course, HAHA doesnt describe what i am feeling now.

2009-04-07T09:58:00.002+08:00

this week is cramped up. i have never seen a week so filled before.
wonder if it's because chef is going for a holiday. then i can take this time to catch up with my prev friends who didnt go to the party and learn up web design!
yeah. will have to apply that to work and my own personal stuff!

so we went to my fav brownie place last night. did photoshoot too.
yeah. sounds silly and the photos look silly too.
but oh wells. can't wait till you are 40 and have an apple figure then start taking kinky pictures right...?
orh kay.... not that kinky after all. we took lots of photos. enjoyed every moment. :]

yeah. the bike pretty compliments his long silky hair and my nice figure. :)

and you got it. it looks kinda freaky if we stare into the camera.

we will look too fierce and it's not coool at all. Nono. *shakes finger left and right*

call me a biker babe. :D

yeap. one that doesnt wear less materials to cover private parts.

HAHAHA.

cmon. make full use of clothes. damn it.

look pretty with clothes on. not off!

2009-04-02T09:46:00.003+08:00

i forgot to mention how my birthday passed.
it seems that in year 2009. very extraordinary days will pass by like VROOM~.
first it was CNY, then Vday, then my bday.

partly cause i am working i guess. and the thought of "holiday" has been repeating itself more and more these days.
part of me wants a break, but another part of me says "aargh.. u are still young. should slog it out first.."
aint all work and no play makes a boy change his name to dumb? (haha. i forgot the line)

so... (fill in) god made it special for me.
he made me looked at the world in an amusing way.
which...
1. i was on the bike... and a bird shit landed on my hand.
whoa. how 'lucky' can that be right?
imagine this. my hand on someone's waist. in which he is holding on the the handles of the bike.
so the bird shit somehow made it to in between his arm and waist, then landed on my freaking hand.
i swear. it was another 'best' moment of my life other than a cockroach landing above my boobies(wearing a tube) just about a week ago.

2. someone left his bike with his keys in. (totally unintentional) while he waits for my jamming session to end.. so on the way back to the carpark. he was saying "oh shit. where are my keys?"
so we hurried to the bike and "uh huh! it's still there!"
lucky shit it is still there. if i know how to ride a bike... i will take the key and throw it down the carpark. oh wells. no camera and nothing. nobody knows man. (well actually. u dun need to ride a bike to know that. heh)
:]

so.. i can say 2009 is really a 'good' year for me.
just wondering... i just mentioned lucky shit in my post.
is that shit supposed to be lucky?

HAHA. lucky shiattt!

2009-03-31T10:12:00.003+08:00

so birthday passed.
really really old now.
received lots of presents.
mostly what i wanted. :] :]
weee.
so photos can be found on facebook and here. but most will be on fb.

sadly, i missed out earth hour.

i was too busy to notice. and when i did, left 15 mins.
so candles that love brought was sent back.
haha.
appreciate those that say "i will be coming" and came!
GOOOOD.
love you guys. above: my dad. he did most of the stuffs just for me.
love him to the core.

above: me and alicia. 8 years of friendship. HAHA. i like this picture. cause we seldom take pictures together....

so poly classmates are paul and sherline... hehe. yeah. the real close ones.

then all my cousins plus one aunt. everybody looks pretty. :] it lies in the genes. HAHA

RPWS chicken family. from left: pussy, clit, feet, ass's bf, ass, wing, drumstick, and extra holding my sally.

above: my choc cake that costs a bomb. anyways i cheated on my candles. cause i didnt count them before bringing them... so i am actually 18 years old! WEEEE.

above: lovely family.

above: my uncle. who helped me out with the fruits and delivery, everything.

above: his wife. my dad's sister. we look alike. people say im like her daughter. go figure..

above: my cousin from my dad's side. sadly, the only one out of 3 turned up. missing the days when he taught me to play truant. HAHA.

and the chickens who woke up really late. they slept over. yes.

and the gay ones. one who wants more and the other who cant be bothered by dick size.

my sec sch band mate. saxy girl. HAHA. dun doubt the size of her eyes... she can sculpture balloons...

alicia and her vampire bf.

now the vampire bf turned to a bug tooth...

check out facebook!

bye!

2009-03-26T17:14:00.002+08:00

i was asking my boss for someone's email..
he was about to say it over the phone.. but then after a while.. he said "errr. i email to you."

so i was like. "okay. :]"
then after a while mail came in.. and it stated...

bigcock_person's name.company's name.com

obviously i cant say who and what company.
but it's kinda funny when you have a bigcock in front of your name for your business email.
imagine that on your namecard...

what if a person has a small dick?
it can be
smallcock_
OR
peanuts_
OR
as.small.as.a.fry

HAHA.
OR a hard one like...
htc.name@company.com
get what i mean?

anders and me figured that HTC = hard thick cock.

LOL.
yeah. he has one in his jeans all the time.
just before u think im being so cocky for cocks..
we both own HTC dream.
yeah. i do dream of having one hard thick cock.
LOL!!!!!
i will be a man. and i can then name my email as...
htc.jieying@cocky.com

WTF!!

hilarious.
bottomline: bound to have lots of diff people in this world. :D

2009-03-25T17:13:00.002+08:00

i am waiting for my lovely prince to give me a ride to his cosy little place.
i do not really mind waiting for a trip (to anywhere).
but riding on a bike is ultimate cool. PLUS. it will be storming soon.
so i guess there will be more hugging.
:D

i wish i can draw us hugging right now.
and i know mai will laughed her chicken butt out.
because i will stick my face into his nipples.
which prob aint not the point. because what i am driving at is the height difference >.-
heh.

so since i am here. then i will write some stuffs about what happened last night.
i went for a facial treatment (yay! first time!)
sponsored by my lovely aunts (dad's side) cause there will be a party soon. and the host is me. :]
im fortunate that the beautician is experienced and caring.
she is located at roxy square.... level 2. shop's name is beauty something.
ok. will get back to that in another post.
so yeah. she did lots of stuff on my face.
and hell, i still feel like my face is so soft right now.
Wee.

so after, reached home.. and realised that my parents are stuck in the hosp.
on the waiting list for some low priority reason.
and the nurses there were really slow.
not to mentioned it is already 10.30pm.. and they should have just changed shifts an hour ago.
*sighs*
so yeah. i showered, and i told my parents that i will drive to ttsh!
so mum was like :O and dad was like :D
bro said "i have faith in you"
but it was ultimate contradicting when he sat beside me.
cause while i was driving, he had his right hand on the handbrake.
Faith? HAHA.

neh mind abt that. so he was giving me wrong directions for the whole time.
luckily i consulted the only walking streeet directory i trust. --> Isaac
HAHA. yeah.
so i followed his instructions. hands were bloody cold for the whole trip..
and wee. i even parked my car in a slot with two cars beside... ALL ON MY OWN!

FUCK YEAH!
HELL FUCKED!

then i jumped out of the car.. and started dancing all to myself.
and i think my bro was trying not to shiver.
i didnt drive that bad. trust me. although i havent drive in like....3 months?
lala. but YAY.

ok. back to my google phone.........

2009-03-23T16:00:00.002+08:00

i have dreamt of huge things for the last two nights.
the moment the alarm rings, first thought that came to my mind was "wow. that was kinda real..."

first night, i went back to secondary school days. yeah. i kinda missed it.
but this time with Mrs Chee, WeiFong and Alicia.
and the whole band of course.
alright the main story is that we DIDNT play music. we had a war with some other countries..
so we were fighting yada yada.. and i lost weifong.
and in the end he managed to escape back, and i helped him out with some stuff (which i forgot)
so he managed to get scholarship(wtf?) and went to another place.
yeah. kinda sadistic.

FIRST, i am the saviour.
SECOND, i just want weifong to go. HAHAHA. wth.
THIRD, mrs chee and alicia didnt make any comments. prob just appearing behind the scenes..
all in all, im a freako who saves the country or whereever i am in! whee~

**
then just last night..... i dreamt that the poly percussionists in rpws were in a swimming pool.
i think we switched to a lot of different places..
like as if you can just click on the icon and the background and clothes of the human change...

ok. i have been in touch with too much I.T and missing band stuff lots.

just fyi, the girls wore large hats and bikinis and the guys were in pink shorts.
we had lots of dinosaur floats around.
and my boyfriend is Enoch.

i dunno what kind of connection will that convey with the real world....... BUT.
let's just keep it as it is.
:D

will take too much effort to let everything be real.
HAHA. bikini and large hats. *waves toes*

2009-03-20T00:19:00.002+08:00

what is with young ladies holding branded bags, wallets, bumble bee glasses, branded necklaces, bracelets, yada yada....

they dun even look good... some have repetitive prints on it..
and it sorta represent my blanket which my grandma(maternal) sewed for me and bro.

please say wow... cause my dad just bought me a HTC DREAM!!!!

yay.
well. it is sorta branded... but i dun really care..
it is full of cool functions... and u can scan the barcode.. download games..
ultimate cooool.

i sorta miss all my poly friends. havent keep in contact regularly and i kinda regret about it now...
sighs.
why do new things keep coming?
why am i so god damn greeeeedy?

WHHHY.....

2009-03-18T12:35:00.002+08:00

things have been happening in a very short period.
"feeling ultra happy today.like there will be nothing to be able to bring me down today." from yesterday's post seemed to be going against me.
last evening, grandma fell ill. and it was a sudden attack.

after getting dinner for my family, saw a shining red star in the sky.
confirmed that it's not a light from the cranes in singapore.. so made a little wish.

and in return. will be a vegetarian for the rest of my life.
just starting to leave out meat... fish will still be in diet. :]

want everyone to be healthy.
bye bye sausages. bye bye beef.
for a better me too.

**side track**
im getting my google phone today!
wee~ bought it online on sunday.
dad's gift.

that will be my boyfriend.
*kisses*

2009-03-17T10:21:00.002+08:00

feeling ultra happy today.
like there will be nothing to be able to bring me down today.
partly cause i rem every single thing that i am supposed to have it with me. :D
and partly chef made effort to come down, prepare bfast, send me to work.
i hope this honeymoon period lasts forever. HEEE.

lala. im so uber hyped for my birthday party. got everything done now.
:] just left a little bit more of packing and stuffs(decorating).

weeeee. im so happy today.
i love italian curry.

2009-03-12T23:04:00.002+08:00

happy 800th post.

today is not as efficient as the start of this week.
have so much to do at work and at home. yet im stuck at thinking of unnecessary stuffs.
roars. i should be more productive..
oh well. give me two months. and i will show you what i have been thinking about. :]

my birthday is arriving. and im sure YOU are thinking of what to give to me.
i will list down stuffs that i am completely satisfied with in my life right now. you can BUY the others which i didnt list down... (humans not included)

ok. im currently satisfied and living happily with...
1. silver
2. sally
3. my wallet
4. my bag
5. ipod
6. earrings
ok.. this is not working...

**
i will list down things which i do not mind having more than a set or a collection of it!
here goes.................

1. real money
2. socks (cute ones)
3. fancy ribbons (velvet, paper, printed ribbons, everything)
4. attractive and functional boxes.
5. drum sticks :D preferably 5A and of good compacted wood.
6. free restaurant food vouchers which do not need a minimum amount to dine in
7. money vouchers (like takashimaya)
8. colourful and weird functioning pens/pencils
9. headphones
10. usuable subbed credit cards

should be okay i think.
i do not like receiving photo frames, cups, COASTERS, watches, wallets, shoes, decorations stuffs, files, notebooks, bags, nail clippers, nail polish, cosmetics.

earrings are acceptable. but i prefer exotic designs.. which usually cost a lot (above 30)

oh wells.
i love to communicate with my love using morse code.

:X

p.s vouchers and money are good. so i can still survive after spending lots for the party. :D

2009-03-09T10:41:00.002+08:00

I got a new camera from my cousins from maternal side.. and wee!! making full use of it now.
you will know what brand and bla bla when u come for my birthday party..

meanwhile.. havent been updating photos..
so here it is.
number 1: picture of silver sleeping.
Furby (previous hamster.. now living with isaac) has the most funny sleeping postures.
but silver is known for sleeping like a carpet or being squeezed up.
so here she is--> on a toilet roll doing a NO NO hand signal. picture number 2: my working table. im kinda fortunate to have my own little corner with a huge table. bigger than the one at home. plus i have a good computer and everything :]
supberb! btw, i love pencils! esp those with built in leads. it's super amazing. the side of the pencils ,where u shave it off, changes color everytime u stuck it into the shaving machine. COOOOL~

Picture number 3: Euclid's drumset.

One of the rats' name is Euclid. Named after some HUGE inspiration. :]

this photo, Euclid and his wife live on the drumset. Currently they live on the tv. (you will get what i mean when i post the picture)

so yeah. drumset at chef's place. double bass pedal and everything.

wooooots!
sadly, no more bands now.

picture 4: having fun with brother.

he is holding the teddy which rpband people bought last year during me and enoch's birthday.

yeap. we have the same teddy. like wth.

sorry. im still in love with my sally. that white teddy lives on the keyboard.

bro is still as dark as ever. can see the contrast with the shirt he wears. and the shining white teeth of course. HEH.

lala. will do more tml!

ciao!

continuing work time!

2009-03-05T11:33:00.002+08:00

ever tried whispering "bye bye" to your love one over the phone in a room of your own?

call me a freak... as that's something i enjoy listening to. HAHA.

2009-03-02T15:23:00.002+08:00

:]
feels good today.
because OL got scolded by senior boss! YAY
GGUUUUUDDDD!!
^.^

stargazers found a new drummer, and a better one of course.
super good for them too. ;]
just unhappy about how words are being flicked around to my ears..
well, i was asked to help out. and nasty words.. sighs..

**
side track,
things are getting a little more calm.
just have to look for my birthday cake.
and decorations to put up for my party.
:]

yayness.
have to go do some stuffs now.
taaaa

2009-02-26T09:56:00.003+08:00

merely just reaction based.
something happens, someone will have some feelings towards it.
creating some gossip to happen or further nasty comments made.
i was told to dun listen to what people say.
because humans are very simple animals, they react accordingly.
simply said, they feel difficult to ignore.

can you then judge someone's performance based on a short period of time?
meanwhile, the world is so wide, sure to have someone with higher qualities.
but to think of it, will that someone work for you and listen and discuss with you?

2009-02-18T09:50:00.003+08:00

hello.

just had a nice breakfast with potatoes looking like onions.

plus there was a nice view of cable cars.

i love to eat and i can eat alot.

as you know, i eat alot and sometimes you wonder "where does the food go?" That short little triangular bodied girl is me. bloody tall rectangular bodied boy is him. I have a short food pipe (esophagus or something like that) with a huge volume stomach. Whereas, my dear friend has a long food pipe and a small stomach closed to his ass. So, now you know!

Do not judge a person by his or her size, the face or the physical appearance in general. Sometimes, looks can be deceiving... and if you want to know why i am shorter than my friend, it's because i eat rice, he eats potato and pasta.

apiddv cm urpj.e yr ,pcy. ,cyd ekrpat!!

figure that out with DVORAK :]

2009-02-16T10:05:00.004+08:00

good morning world :]
woke up thinking i was uber late for work. like 10 plus. and in my dreams i have already decided to take an MC cause my tummy has been aching (in my sleep) after lots of chicken wings.

so i yay-ed to myself.
and it was only 7.53.
*sighs*
went back to slp, tried to oversleep past 8am.

but heck it when the alarm went.
woke up and did the morning routine. :(

so i am at work now. probably. HEH
drinking my lovely milo which cost 1.2 because that LCB didn't want to send that dispenser to repair.
oh wells.

so much for today. yeah quite a lot. :]

**
yesterday was kinda funny. played on a circle stage.
despite being circle, it doesnt really roll around, so you still have to face one side of the stage where everyone will be standing there.
there are also humans standing above you. like on the other levels.
and im so worried if someone tries to spit on me.
-.-
made hell lots of mistakes.
i dunno why. but everyone made at least 5 mistakes.
timing, stroking, bla bla bla bla, tune.
GOOD thing is, we manage to cover it off well!
HAHA. the crowd clapped and wee~

and while i was doing my drummie solo for one of the songs.
my stick flew off my hand at a high altitude. and within a quarter of a beat, i manage to close my jaw (cause i open it in awe) and throw my stick from the left to the right to finish that Da-dum.

heh. should be quite a funny look.
too bad you guys are not there.
HAHA.

yeah. come for our gigs.
cause i tend to drop sticks 'once in a while'.
and you will never know when.
like the ikea advert "expect the unexpected."
but dun expect me to go naked. :]

2009-02-11T12:08:00.002+08:00

ok. during my lunch time. NOTE. LUNCH TIME.

i was being very zilian... googled my pictures online.

and found that alicia made a post about me on stomp 2 years ago..

really super romantic.

i cried *wipes tears on face*

sighs. why can't we be lesbians?

2009-02-11T10:52:00.002+08:00

got blur-edly woke up by alarm at 7am this morning, which is supposed to be 8am.
didnt tune back to 8 as I was supposed to run yesterday morning, which eventually ended up as dreamrunning. HEH.
so within this morning's one hour period, i jumped from one dream cloud to the other.
yeap! 2 different dreams.

At first i was dreaming that i am at cold storage, that particular outlet at united square, the one at the corner.
the cashier was scanning the bar code and asked if i want to pay together or separately.
and if i do together, i will get to participate in a lucky draw.
if done separately, i can get a can of abalone from 3 of the whatever i was buying.
so figured out tt my luck is nv good in draws like that.. so i settled with 2 cans of abalone.

woke up and realised that i am having CNYWS. (Chinese New Year Withdrawal Symptom) :D
so realised that its about 7.28am.. went back to sleep again... see if i can manage to eat the 2 cans of abalone.

the other dream was....
ok. i remembered it 5 mins ago..
while writing the first dream i forgot about the second.
DAMN!

didnt get to eat abalone in the end.
:F

2009-02-09T10:09:00.002+08:00

im simply amazed at how the aunties greet twice a week in the same manner..

Auntie A: "Auntie morning"
Auntie B: "Morning, you then morning la. super early la."
Auntie A: "huh?" (this comes everytime, and i wonder why too)
Auntie B: "you early la. morning"
Auntie A: "I come to work ma... need to come at 9.30 ma...."
Auntie B: "ha ha. -.-"

since the first day till now.
what's with this kind of greeting.. AUNTIES.

2009-02-06T23:53:00.003+08:00

took a cab for a very short distance. prob about just a kilometre.
just want to minimize the chance of seeing someone whom i dun wish to see.
there was a huge traffic jam, and it was raining.
a lady standing along the road was waiting for cab, so i offered her a space and take the cab after i alight prolly 2 mins later.

when i alighted, she said "May God bless you."
and i mumbled to my little angel... "please let her blessings bless my mum instead. please make her treat me better. please dun be so cruel..."

i wish it works.
let's see if this small little prayer works.
:(

2009-02-03T22:49:00.002+08:00

Have been receiving sms-es from different GUYS every week (like once every week) with contents similar to:
"Hey, how have you been? still rem me? :)"

The first thing that struck my head will be "er.. shit. trouble's here again."

alright. i may be thinking too highly of myself.. :X
BUT some old flings may just want to keep in contact to see how "good" am i working in my life now....
mmmmm let's seeee.. actually all of them contain smiley faces.. i wonder why.

**
was playing Big 2 with Anders.
he mentioned about this term freq used in sweden, "if you are unlucky in games, then you are lucky in love, vice versa..."
similarly, our own chinese term.. "if a black cat cross your path, you will have bad luck all day."

ok. grandmother's tales... right. -.-

i kinda believe in it. because i lost Big 2, end up having to cook for the winner.. N yeah this sorta applies to my first paragraph in this post too.
im kinda lucky in love. :]

any comments on what to cook for him?
he specified to have at least one natural ingredient in the dish.
so no instant noodles.
sighs. im in such a dilemma.

2009-01-28T09:43:00.003+08:00

CNY was reaaaallly good.
cause i get to wear new clothes!
forced myself to go to town and shop. (rather amusing..)
helped out with the chores too.. but mostly done by others. :P

on the first day, took photos as usual.
this time round was a little wacky..
my nv-ever-planned-his-day brother didn't do his laces till a minute before we head out.
so being a KIND sister, i helped him out.
turned out, i did a cool pattern with his laces which he found it too cute to wear it.
so he did it all over again. *boo*

oh yeah. a shot of us doing the laces and my mum doing her morning ritual.

then we had took pictures with the laughing buddha. (Xiao Fuo)
yeah. wacky too.

Take a LOOK at my bracelet..

it's a snake!!

everyone was like "eew. CNY wear snake ar.. tie down bla bla bla"

but me & cousin said "weeee~ AWEESummmee"

On the second day, did the usual visits. yada yada.

ended up at home watching Icarly, lied to mum and head out!

to SENTOSA!

me and anders 'bullied' each other (note that i got bullied as well... *gives puppy face*)

and yeap a photo of half eyed monster and hairy monster. go figure who's who!

and meet our new sand master.
Mr P.

tada. back to work.

PIXAR - For The Birds (ORIGINAL)

2009-01-23T16:46:00.001+08:00

Just like in office.
everybody pecking on everyone else, and when someone weird comes along, the previous batch of hatred will then be posted onto that weirdo.

real life. so stupid.
humans are so stupid. haiz

2009-01-23T15:20:00.002+08:00

im so happy!
i have bought lots of chocs to build relationships with other people.
and thinking about making my mama happy later makes me even happier!
whoa. im super excited.

2009-01-22T16:55:00.003+08:00

One day, a green gay frog fell in love with a pink thing.
not knowing what that pink thing is, he went to get a hold of the edges. "it smells reaaaally nice!" A-frog says....

"oh faaaaark. aaaanother guy is stuffing my aaaaass with his ****, pink god, help me!!" A-frog shouted.

to be continued........

2009-01-22T11:05:00.002+08:00

we used to have the same lifestyle.
wake up as late as possible, take public transport to school, take a little puff, lesson, breaktime, lesson, movie time, lesson, test, shopping, home, rj, sleep. or band then sleep.

then after graduation everybody filled their lifes with different things to do.
like working, studying, working and studying, ns, and only ONE person is slacking (after a year of graduation) eh, at least mai is studying music lo. dun tell me you study taiwan drama serial.....

ok. i am getting sarcastic again. but this dear friend of mine can take sarcasm, and should be scolded.. cause she is still not being realistic. not that you can be a princess-wanna-be. BUT do that when you get a boyfriend like Grace. ok. look at me, making huge remarks of another, then another. should stop. ok. stop now.

alright bye.

*back*
lala.
im happier now.
partly cause big boss didnt call.
good to not hear the voice :]
im gonna die if someone shows this to him. BLEH.

what i was going to highlight before was that, some people suay till lao sai, some people lucky till every wish is fulfilled.
of course everyone wants a fulfilling life with the least amount of effort as possible.
but the sad thing is, the ones working hard are looking at the ones already drowning themselves in the fantasy land.

oh wells. this is not the end of life.
I CAN WORK HARD TO WHAT I WANT!!

yay *pops champagne*

haiz. back to reality, just sitting here.
*sighs*

2009-01-21T17:03:00.002+08:00

some people are like to do the same thing all over again.
oh wells. boring people.

im missing the drummer from the last band of the Seng Kang GIG now.
he has wonderful double pedaling skills.
imagine doing that for one set = 45 mins.

crazy.

2009-01-19T15:16:00.002+08:00

yeah. looking through facebook all over again reminds me of...

- how loud sherline can be
- how everybody switches from lesson to mahjong mood during last sem.
- and how everybody still play dai dee when teacher is in class
- how danny played mario in class, and everybody screaming in awe..
- how tricia dared the class to carry flower pots.
- how we apologised to the DM.. -.-
- how we lock sherline out of class
- how we bitch about everyone else
- how we smoke at staircases :] :]
- lying on the lawn (only once. the grass is pokey)
- taking pics all over sch
- grace showing her pretty legs in class
- marlene borrowing jacket from the boys everytime she wears a short skirt
- charmaine and cheryl always gossiping and buying snacks.
- everybody wowing over cheryl's slimming cum nutritional drink, because there is a 'machine' to stir the drink. hmmm.
- shaun updating the class on anime and seasonal shows
- talking about driving lessons.
- smoking in the carpark.
- trying to get a dip in the swimming pool. :P
- occupy lots of tables in the canteen.
- samuel's nonsense
- Benny Tan's accent
- jennifer's free cigarettes
- everybody running around.
- PON SCHOOL!!
- watch movies in class, plus eating.

everything.
even studying.
oh my. i miss poly life.....
so much freedom.

2009-01-19T11:54:00.002+08:00

mmm. the office ladies are talking about me.
saying that im wearing black and whispering all the other stuffs.
oh wells~
partly, feeling a little stuck up, cause i dunno how to react with this kind of speech.
partly, feeling left out.
but i guess better to be stuck up, it's okay to be a little bitchy sometimes.
(i guess... sighs)

performance on saturday wasnt good to my ears. can only hear the vocalist.
thus when the guitars were struggling to keep up to my speedy tempo, i didnt know at all.
lala. but still yd's friends still think that we are one of the best performers.
:]

i want to go back to school.
working life is so stressful....

2009-01-16T10:58:00.002+08:00

CNY is coming. and like the other festives, i dun seem to really get the kick of it till a few days before.
i am still wearing black and have been into black for so damn long.
Seems like me and mai have SUDD change our colour opinion. (she used to wear black everyday, her wardrobe is full of song ka clothes) HAHAHA

had very delicioius dinner ytd.
swedish chef made hand made meatballs plus very sinful mashed potato.
he made me uber happy. :]

and yeah. have been returning home late by 'jamming'.
so im really tired out.

anyway, tml will be our first gig for the new year at SENG KANG CC.
evening about 5pm.
ticket is $5 from me.. door sales should be about $8 i think.
will be playing songs as usual - iron maiden, deep purple, black sabbath, thin lizzy.
this time round, the performance time is twice as long as previous.
:]
there are other bands performing too.
and it pretty well covers all genres in music except techno, pop and classical.

so do sms me about ticket.
9127 5535 -> secretary's name is jessica.

2009-01-13T11:16:00.002+08:00

prev night went to botanical gardens.
usual walk but with someone different.
with a little more adventure this time.
scared some fart out of me, but he is there to hold me, reassurance.
well, we walked through some unlighted path.
and it is farking scary. being in a lighted city for 20 years.
then sudd walking in a non-lighted place gave me adrenaline boost.
he suggested to use the torch from the phone. and i felt more at ease.

ytd had sashimi AGAIN. yeap we ate too much fish for a week, since after my gum starts to really heal.
went to kent ridge park to take a walk. the weather gives a bonus to the trip.
i was in my $10 cheap top and it looked really good on me.
think my figure can make ugly and plain tops look good. (HAHA.. self praising)
ok. drop the top.
eh. watched the rays of the sun setting.

he rode the bike down to SK CC and had the gig meeting.
was such a waste of time. organisers didnt really plan for it i guess.
but overall still done for everything so not that bad.

then bike down to lower pierce reservoir.
walked in the darkness again, with the bike parked outside the gates, we walked without knowing the limit.
walked past cranes, chirping birdies, flying stuffs, with him and the creatures of the night walking with me on that path, i am certain that the appt with the moon will be super great.

and it sure was! full moon, at just halfway above the towers.
the stars just above, him rattling about the orion belt, galaxy, fried egg theory, yeah i know nerd stuffs. (kinda enjoy the topic)
his arms are so damn long, that when i hugged my knees close to me, he can actually hugged the whole of me and my knees.
i was laughing about it then he said "yeap. we are meant for each other."

and under the witness of the moon and the stars, i asked "will you walk with me for the rest of my life?"

.
.
.

damn romantic right!!!!
wah lao.
i know i can be a director lo.
can win the farking grammy award!!

2009-01-12T15:53:00.002+08:00

i want to quote someone-Tom Wilkinson

"Stop talking about love. Every asshole in the world says he loves somebody. It means nothing. It still doesn’t mean anything. What you feel only matters to you. It’s what you do to the people you say you love, that’s what matters. It’s the only thing that counts."

:]
reading harpreet's blog secretly.. :]

yeap. be happy my love!

2009-01-07T22:18:00.002+08:00

reading previous band mate's blog.
and she is an air stewardess now.
damn f-ing jealous of the countries that she got to visit just by serving her looks in the air.
close to 15 different countries and states..... in just one year...

but one thing that i can surely win her *plus guarantee and chop and whatever or stamp*
is.... I can structure better english sentences than her.

because she stated -
"Oh i want Doooogggyyy"

which sounds terribly wrong and twisted.
do u want a real dog?
OR u want a fuck?

2009-01-07T13:25:00.002+08:00

lala. im at home.
just cleaned silver and wondering if i should invite the two kitties up to my place for a drink.
anders sent me home last night, and we saw two kitties purring like babies.
they were previously owned, probably didnt know the way home and got upset about being left outside so were moaning about it. or mourning. HAHA. pardon me.

back to where i started. i am at home.
wisdom teeth removal not really a safe thing.
i have my infection right to somewhere.
noted this even before removing of stitches.
but dentist assured that it is part of the healing process.
BUT i reassured that it isnt cause i need to be on panadol and it hurts real bad.

one thing that gets on my nerve is when i called ytd to explain about the situation, im told to chill~ about it.

i really hate seeing dentists for complicated procedures like a f-ed up one called impacted wisdom teeth removal, and am certainly not a MC queen.
although i like to slack during work, but having 7 days off work right after HK trip could have got me into hot soup.
why would i want to call up and explain about my f-ed infection to you?!

ok. sorry about the excessive Fs here.
seriously, dun like being treated like a minor.

& this morning's appt was definitely bad too.
at first i was being laughed by the nurse, "yeah. it is part of the healing process"
me "it smells. i have this rotting taste, and my jaw hurts. and if i dun take panadol, the pain spreads to my head. and there is this white stuff on my cheek."
her "aiyah, not so serious one la."

ok. 3 days MC.
serious or not?

2009-01-03T00:12:00.004+08:00

~STARGAZERS~

was wearing a green tag because i didnt bring my ID, & the guy at the door of the club says "No ID, cannot enter"

me: WHAT?! im performing lei!

guy: errr. yeah. i know.. ok. just dun drink.

me: ok. *reaches out hand for the stamp*

guy: oh. take the green tag from that lady

me: ??

guy: just to prove you are under 18.

me: -.- (look at my right hand!)

you got it! i AM the drummer.

we were so good that we were offered by organisers to participate in the Fort Canning performance!

oh wells, we have an upcoming gig at Seng Kang CC. (hopefully with a mic-ed bassdrum)

Show your support!!

yeap. my swedish chef!

Anders always cook for me.. mostly those programmes showed on YouTube featuring swedish chef! like meatballs, spaghetti, etc...

&&&&& thank you SR for the professional shoots.

do visit his website to have a look at his collage.

http://www.xrphotography.com/

2009-01-01T00:04:00.000+08:00

my so beautiful photo

and my knn 2009 face.

HAPPY NEW YEAR!

2008-12-30T22:54:00.002+08:00

ok. not closing down blog. HAHA.
got 3 readers but still readers right?
love love!

had my wisdom teeth extracted today. (2 of them, lower left and right)
sorry mai didnt sms you back.
sudd lost the wisdom to sms.
oh well, 6 hours after surgery.. (mine's impacted)
and my mouth freaking hurts
even drinking water needs to be a careful work!
swallowing saliva is no different....

oh well. still wanted to head out the next few days.
i think i can dream on.
*sighs*

thank you Anders for today. :]
he cooked meatballs for breakfast,
and salmon for lunch for me..
now im really full now.
full and contented with love that is.
thanks.

ok. now i know how much alicia has gone through with extracting 7 all at a time.
wth.
she is such a super woman.

2008-12-29T10:29:00.002+08:00

thinking of closing down this blog.
no time luh.

i need a gooood camera.
should i buy myself a new handphone?

2008-12-26T00:09:00.002+08:00

great great great performance!
although practisced (forgot spelling) lots of 2 mins to midnight.
and even took out one song from songlist....
but still GOOOOD!

people took photos,
got jug of vodka coke for free by the organiser for free!
and my first time performing as a drummer!
weeee~
ok. this is making me want to play more.. lala

so yeah. took lots of photos too.
sadly lots didnt contain me.. cause im sitting behind.
:(
oh wells.
will upload photos..
on facebook that is :]

Merry christmas

thanks alicia, glenn and Ma ma for turning up!
love!

2008-12-22T11:16:00.002+08:00

i have gone on a unwasted trip...

let's go through the bad points first:
- I have to work on the next day. & am fucking working now.

the good points:
- Get to spend money. :]
- Ate a lot of dim sum
- went to disneyland
- got lucky and got business class air trip back. ultra :]

yay.
will post photos soon.
working. jamming. sleeping till christmas.

oh. there will be a gig at HomeClub on christmas.
I will be performing at 4.30.
anybody need tickets? $14.
Tickets comes with 1 alcoholic drink + 1 soft drink
contact me :]

*sighs*
work.

2008-12-12T13:38:00.002+08:00

come on everybody, let's take things easy.
everything has a reason, and dun be too pessimistic about it.
and when things go wrong on you, just deemed it as you are fucking suay.
or just that god needs you to stray away from this person,
or that god wants you to learn something from another person.

**
im a super happy girl today.
because i finally PLAYED all the songs SUCCESSFULLY by this week!
ultra fucking happy!

alright. will a post of my own photo soon.
hopefully a photo when im jamming.
and some photos of hong kong.
:]

dim sum here i come!!
*runs with both hands swinging in the air*

Ten year old plays eruption(Eddie Van Halen)

2008-12-12T00:17:00.001+08:00

think yuda should play like that!!!
wooots!

2008-12-10T14:29:00.002+08:00

have been in the working life for 9 months.
and it sucks totally.
most of the time, you dun even know if this is what you really want to do. or well all the time.
and you wake up in the morning, hoping that you wont be continuing the shit you have left yesterday or the week before.

at first the jobs seem to be exciting.
going out to meet people, discussing the same interests at heart, expanding the field of market with our what-we-can-do.
but somehow, when i reflect at home.
why am i doing this for my boss?
yeah. i do work for him.
but then why should i work for him then?
questions after questions, and realised that YES.
"mum and dad told me to get a job... any job that accepts me"

im not motivated to clinch deals for someone else.
because credit is not mine.
of course i get to learn a lot of social skills while working with these people.
and i get loads of personal time.
i have my own desk, own personal space...
even when i dun do anything for a day, i can still get pay.
when i fall sick, they still pay me.
that's the good thing.
:]

but oh wells.
im seriously still lost about what to do since after graduation.
i havent really enjoyed doing a job.
till now, just working on drumming and doing a little arts and crafts to pay back the creativity that has just flooded my mind.

2008-12-10T00:20:00.002+08:00

3 things driving me crazy right now.

1. unable to play what i should have done.
2. my gum hurting. think it is the bloody wisdom tooth getting out soon. hurting my teeth when i chew.
3. havent started on packing my stuffs and getting ready for the hk trip.

i dun have enough time.

2008-12-05T00:10:00.002+08:00

we are all soaked in our own world of fantasy.
through the skin, into the veins, to the bones.
when it owns me, it grabs my arm and never let me off.
i think about it everyday, the rhythm and the tune.
time to practice my rudiments.
tata.

2008-11-30T22:31:00.002+08:00

few days ago, went to this lady's office to buy a sample of the cordyceps that her family is consuming. (because we are going to run a test on it)
so she was convinced by my work attitude, started to ask about how long have i been working at this company..
so my answer shocked her. her guess is 2 years..
so she asked about my pay.. and introduced about HER company.
so i kept going off track, cause quite a sensitive topic.. talked about cordyceps after...
then she asked if i am attached. she wants to introduce my to her son. one year younger than me, in ns right now, got a place in NUS pharmacy, yada yada.
ask me where i stay.. yada yada.
nice person.. but a little bit scary. (too honest i guess, :X)
introduced me to her sis in law...
mmm.
yeapps. good to have compliments :]

**
jamming and party last night.
didnt really party, just ate pizzas together...
and played guitar hero.
had a band meeting..
nice feeling.. like a small little family..
ratish spot some other apartment with a party as well.
a few big boobies girls with hunks jumping around, playing games i think..
so the guys then discussed about the diff races' noticeable good appearances.
like malays have good butts, chinese got good legs.... etc etc.

**
christmas is coming.
getting busier again!
wee~

2008-11-25T16:06:00.001+08:00

woots.
finally wrote my first email in chinese...
wooooo.

2008-11-24T23:07:00.002+08:00

i want to fall back into my city of wonder.
let me think twice.

bum bum bee da dum dum de da dum.

be sure. :]

2008-11-18T16:52:00.002+08:00

after years and years of being with her.
knowing that both of their interests are conflicting.
still staying together because he felt that the person sleeping right beside him knows himself best.

i have never met her in real life. but i do know she has a very kind heart.
quite a pity to know if her boyfriend is having an 'affair' outside.
and i know im such a slut-to-be, by tying him down with the 'mesmerizing things' that i can do.
everytime, i got his inside thoughts right, he would give me a kiss on the cheek and look at me..
the eyes that say... "yeah. you know me. but i do know that you are not a good girl."

*just thinking back*
:]
sprinkle some sugar on me please.
you know what i have changed to.

2008-11-15T22:39:00.002+08:00

bro fed her a lot of food.
so in the photo, she is slping with all the food still in her mouth.
yeah. slping with her eyes open.
O.O then talked to someone.
a math fanatic.
and we talked about doing roadshows (i had one today)
and he mentioned that he had done one, promoting on math.
and using soap bubbles as the attraction.
so below was his explanation on solving difficult optimization problems with soap films.

yeah. i dun see any problem.

just blow a stupid bubble la.

do your blow job!

2008-11-13T22:19:00.002+08:00

havent seen parents for very long, and the moment seen my mother.
gave her money.
and she asked for my credit card money.
then i pointed to her "erm aint these for the CNY wear?"
she said "eh, you started to earn money already. should pay for your own clothes."
then i said again "huh. like that de ar?"
she "wah you can go restaurant and eat, yet CNY clothes cannot afford for yourself. Im still paying for your transport and HP bills you know."
me "i can transfer to your account the amount if you want."
she just #$%^&*() the rest.
putting insurance, and everything.

oh whatever.
it's not like i cant handle the bills to pay for myself.
just need to control my spending habits and start to earn some bucks by myself outside.

F you, mum.

2008-11-13T10:00:00.002+08:00

played guitar hero last night.
im super super addicted to it.

ROARRS.
im starting to feel better.
with music i guess. :]

love love.
when can i get my drumssss
o.-

2008-11-12T10:05:00.002+08:00

someone brought me to the jewel box for dinner.
lol. damn romantic and super duper high class...
saw Ashley Chua there... o.O
with his kid and wife.. super O.O

then took cable car ride down to sentosa.
and a back ride down to the beach. (cause i was wearing heels)
that someone laid down a blanket, and laid out the dessert. (not himself)
so ate the dessert, talked about nerdy stuffs, sang monah monah & swedish chef, yada yada.

*skipped the depressing part*

waited at the bus stop for almost 45 mins.
then realised eh. damn! no more bus!
during the wait, played parachuting, tram dance, yada yada.
so scolded ourselves for being stupid for a few mins, then cable car back to mt faber.

during the bike trip back, saw an accident on PIE.
lost my left side earring, although makes no diff right or left....
was kinda slpy, almost frog-eyed.

hee. thank you for the trip.
:]

2008-11-11T14:33:00.002+08:00

was it just all a dream?
that you end up wondering if it's going to continue when you wake up.
i feel like a fucked up fool.

ok. something is wrong with my ears.
i can hear a 'teeeeee' sound at random times for very long.
shit. sounds like an F note.
hurrrr.

2008-11-11T00:05:00.000+08:00

not in the topic for love.
guess im gonna cry to slp again.

2008-11-10T00:12:00.000+08:00

weee. i am starting to love the mess on my table.

2008-11-06T23:29:00.002+08:00

need to concentrate on work.
now senior boss putting more stuff on my shoulders,
cant get to stoned at my desk anymore.

*
have to fill up my life with activities.
need to.

2008-11-05T23:40:00.002+08:00

dropped silver on the ground again.
was making her follow my eyeliner on my hand.. then she missed a step.
oops.
no blood seen this time, just a little bit of screaming when she couldnt flip herself to her fours.

pooor silver.
kisses.

2008-11-04T23:11:00.002+08:00

just talked to my mum.
felt like vomitting blood.
think she feels the same way too.
she just assumes that i know what is on her mind, and i would just 'click' to her freq.
oh wells.

*
Hade en njutbar dag i dag.
bought a pair of shoes.. and some *toooooots*
weeee~
havent gone shopping like this for so long...

:]
realised that i am getting a little afraid of needles now...
good luck for tml, jy.

2008-11-03T23:27:00.002+08:00

it is funny how i checked on a swedeee's blog everyday, when i dun even understand what he is writing..

2008-11-02T22:01:00.002+08:00

hey lady, can you hear the whispers from the surroundings?

walking down, shadows followed.
it seemed that i am not alone.

*
i am not the only one who is loving someone, and at the same time being loved by another person.
we followed the world's commands too much.

please. dun follow your heart.
just make a bloody decision.

2008-11-01T23:23:00.002+08:00

practiscing practiscing.
:]

super wet morning today, yet have to get out of bed early and dress up for work.
my prev dentist recommend me to his friend (also a dentist), his staff going for leave..
so nobody to attend to his recept work. so yeah.
i gave quite a low price for myself. but he raised it about .35 times higher.
good good.

went home, cooked lunch, slept.
green called and i gave him a scolding.
because i thought he called on sunday morning at 6am asking me if i want to eat dinner at jln bukit merah.
LIKE HELL NO! (actually sat 6pm)

woke up, made my way to grandma's place and have dinner.
shared my driving exp with everyone.
lala. good surprise to all of them.
;]

**
have wanted to travel.
wanted to confess.
to pour in emotions.
now i have experienced again- loving someone is painful.
too painful.

i need to get the stress out of my mind.
cause have been taking wrong directions (more frequently and longer period)
and some other things.
oh yeah. when i wake up and look at my pillow nowadays...
just gives me a scare. toooo much fallen hair.

well. maybe im not made to love someone.
i just dunno how to contain.

2008-10-30T14:47:00.003+08:00

why do so many people praise me about my character/ looks/ attitude/ yada yada... and yet he decides to give up on me?

perhaps still not good enough.
oh wells.

still.. heart damn painful when flashes occur.
argh. dial 995 ...please someone...

2008-10-29T23:15:00.002+08:00

yeah... trip to pulau ubin with ingela and anders.
long hair barbie live!

ok. bloody blogger doesnt allow me to post any more photos.

or perhaps it's my network.

either way okay!

idiot!

2008-10-28T21:42:00.002+08:00

had a rather mind feeding day.
as in... i talked to myself quite a lot. too much.

had my brother piggy backed me to the toilet this morning.
yes. i know this should be a shameful act. but he ran around the house with me on his back..
luckily didnt get any unnecessary bruises.

*
so read through the theory book before the driving test...
met for trial run.
so finally go for test!

had a lenient tester, and he passed me for editing my mistake (serious) on the second time the same scenario happened.
WEEEE.

*
torturable thing to wait for the pathetic slip of paper.
no longer than my forearm.
*sighs*
and had to get back to work to settle some advert stuffs.
*sighs*

*
after work, met Anders and he bought me a Dodge Chancer!
weee~
the first present after since isaac gave me a watch.
went to his place. and it's filled with food.
wished i could taste the fish that ingela prepared.. but have to go home and show the 'surprise' to my parents. (they didn't know about it)

met mary ann at the station. (long story)
and erm upon reaching home. parents aren't really supportive of me giving the 'surprise'
perhaps their mindset is too traditional.
they insisted me to drive in the day where the sun comes out bl abl abla.
so i stared at the tv for about 30 mins. and wondered "why did things turn out this way?"
then showered. ate lots of cookies. (didnt buy dinner)
then commit to my computer.
wanted to work on the songs for tml's jamming but just couldnt get processed.
too upset.

:(

2008-10-26T22:13:00.002+08:00

im feeling so empty.
need someone from an unbiased stand to talk to me.
follow your feelings? follow realistic points?

i need to make a decision in which i wont regret later in life.

2008-10-25T17:24:00.003+08:00

the second day when ingela's in singapore, i requested her to make a swedish meal.

lalala. she failed in the meatballs, but the patties are super delicious yummmy.

guess swedish love to cook their own.

or maybe it's the distance.. cause if they are lazy to cook, they will starve.

if singaporeans are lazy to cook, just go down and buy la!

within 5 mins gao tim liao!

went to pulau ubin today.

will upload when i get the photo file.

2008-10-20T23:47:00.000+08:00

im leaving it all.
thanks for the assurance.

2008-10-20T16:52:00.003+08:00

Lots of hoo-haa happened at work today.
which is a roll over of mistakes from previous workers then BAAM, got to me..

but it's okay.
feels minor compared to last night.

2008-10-19T23:20:00.002+08:00

"All I want is someone who I can speak to about you. But, you are the only one whom I managed to speak well to."

if only i have the freedom to choose the religion that i can go to.
i will follow you.

so many things i want to say.
just end up converting them to tears instead.
im so damn depressed.

maybe i need more chocolates in my life.
urgh f.
forget it.

2008-10-18T00:10:00.002+08:00

went to Yong Peng, Muar, and Malacca all in one day!
certainly valuable lesson. Esp on emotional values and EQ.
glad that my boss is a holy good example on that.
being able to tolerate amplified small mistakes is surely difficult!

shant mention what happened after reaching singapore.
fallen too deep.

ciao.
i wanna go for bob the builder day.
read mai's blog. and bloody hell. nv invite me. wah lao. i want to complain!

2008-10-15T23:48:00.002+08:00

did the another test to double confirm the disease.. and wee. im FREEE.
lala. happy! now left only the iron thing to deal with.
working on it! got to eat more COW.

met paul today.
went karaoke.
cant believe we sang all the old school songs.
and songs that are bloody slow.

ok. im tired. not thinking. nite.

2008-10-14T21:36:00.005+08:00

today is kinda self reflecting for me.
slacked as much as i can during work. (as usual; and i know my boss may be reading this..)
ANYWAY, cooked dinner for bro and mum. (terriyaki salmon and salad side；おいしい)
think my mum wondering what happened to me.. cause i did housework on saturday mornin (sweep and clean the floor, and YES i need to let everybody know!)
oh wells. sometimes cooking is fun. :]

ok. so met alicia on sunday for beer. this is her cute little picture before she gets her ortho done.
**
on sunday, went for the bridge walk with dad and aunts.
超级好玩！
took 2 hours from Alexandra Arch to Mt Faber and back again.
Saw 'MRT' and realised it was MaRang Trail. what a joke, in the middle of nowhere.

this is henderson waves. bridge made of timbre. will feel better if sandwiches are there!
on our way back, me and dad took the earth trail, and met this puny　したけ.
obviously poisonous.

ok. i was intending to jump in this next picture, but the camera was too slow in its' shuttering.

but manage to take the muscles i have on my thighs *winks*

me and my aunts at henderson waves, enjoying ourselves...

erm. my lunch surprise last week.

that's all.

oh oh. and i thought of something funny.

ok.. here goes.

why do thumbdrives like to be slot into the macbook?

BECAUSE it clears all sins! (com-viruses)

hehe. im wonky~

2008-10-11T23:38:00.002+08:00

i grabbed my heart.
felt it tearing again.
to it's pieces.
none i have now.

shook my head.
no. i dun want it to be like that 'first time' again.

whatever.
no more stupid visits again.

2008-10-10T23:12:00.002+08:00

lol. i can only upload one photo.

STUPID BLOGGER.

ok. will try again tml.

anyway, had a very interesting lunch appt today.

totally blew my mind off.

there are so many parts of singapore that i havent seen.

today is extraordinary.

2008-10-07T22:51:00.001+08:00

having a disease.

*
had pepparkakor with someone by the bench.

*
dun wanna think about it. *shakes head*

2008-10-07T10:57:00.002+08:00

i feel like crying.
but it feels like i shouldn't contribute much into it.
just afraid that it will end up like that first thing.

when i have decided to close the doors, i mean it.
i dun want to listen to the empathy anymore.
somehow it just relates back.
listening no more.
enough.
...
..
.

time to play around and see how things go.
only rich guys in queue please.

2008-10-03T23:58:00.003+08:00

have i said i dun love you anymore?
or do u assume that?
when i dun mentioned i love you, what are your emotional thoughts like?
1) she doesnt love me anymore
2) she is just considering
3) she is a player! F***
4) what does she want from me? why isnt she saying it?
5) TELL ME YOU LOVE ME BITCHH
6) i should just forget about it

lots more to go. lots of negative and one positive.
possibly cause im a pessi person.

i seriously hope you can dun assume on things.
when i try to make myself think that love between us is still workable, it seemed like i have a mental blockout.
perhaps to me now, relationship is nuthing more to just a game.
i think i truly need a break.

dun tell me you love me.
prove it.
saying "i dun want you to feel hurt" and leaving me, saying that "i think this is the best solution."IS NOT HELPING.
nor will it put back the relationship.
i guess i will just put your ONCE considerate actions to the back of my mind.
to just take note that yes. you ARE a good friend.
and that you just want to MAINTAIN it that way.

alright. enough said. really jy ENOUGH SAID.
what's the point with hanging around a guy, when he himself know no shit of what he wants in the relationship?
simply saying i love you is not easy my dear.
i am not asking for your money, or your protection over me, or asking you to be more handsome, or want you to change your attitude...
where is that pathetic trust?

maybe i should rephrase.
where is that pathetic trust in you?
and do u trust Him? your mentor? or me? or yourself?
answer: you have no clue.

P A T H E T I C.

2008-10-02T22:23:00.003+08:00

what f-ing happened?

roars.
couldnt be bothered.
more like another come and go situation again.
guys are more or less the same.
once they are done with the meal, wipe their mouths, pay the bill and off they go.

im not believing in love again.
it's all bullshit.

2008-10-01T13:52:00.001+08:00

SO MUCH FOR THESE TWO MONTHS.
what a selfish person.

i hope you regret. like everybody else does. and then go eat your own shit some days later.

2008-09-30T23:46:00.003+08:00

double sides to a story.

there are always two sides to a particular story.
simply meaning dun just look or take a person's view and make that a conclusion.
things can get real nasty if the emotions play around with your thoughts.

and using the same thing (love).
once, i was being honest and confident about the relationship.
i succeeded in sculpting a better character out of him.
and then i told him "i love you everyday."
and i pointed out at things that he may have missed out in life.
teach on how to pause and admire small details in life at times.

somehow, that little moment when we paused.
we were told about how beautiful the scenary of another island could be.
no stranger the speaker was. & thoughts of running free came to our mind.
the relationship with my lover stood still.
we know what we should do to maintain.
yet both of us are doubting our own abilities in handling the situation.

saying "i love you" isnt simple.
but from another point of view,
solving hardcore problems can be fun and easy-to-do.

but are we ready?
or perhaps... am i ready?

2008-09-29T23:49:00.002+08:00

how i wish when our love is being taken by the other person,
the two hearts just get into a small wooden box to be locked and kept aside.
so that no other influences will happen. and that this love-tale will last forever.

why am i having such low understanding of myself and my dear?
i believe he loves me lots.

ok. sally, what's love?
seems like everybody is using that word so frequently...
i just feel like turning lesbian. (screams to alicia)
ROAAARS.

2008-09-28T22:22:00.002+08:00

how i wish i have so much more confidence in myself.
it seemed like i have been getting a lot more unnecessary attention these few days.
are more people getting less loved these few days that's why they search for new ones?
or are the options better out there? or do they seemed to be better out there?

that's the thing with homo sapiens.
we go with feelings too much.